Tidak ada yang spesial darinya, kalau boleh jujur. Ini bukan pandangan bias, bukan karena pengalaman selama bertahun-tahun direndahkan oleh orang-orang di sekitarnya, atau sebuah pandangan pesimis terhadap diri sendiri. Pada kenyataannya, memang tidak ada yang spesial darinya.
Ia hanya orang biasa.
Eh, mungkin orang biasa yang memiliki berat dan proporsi tubuh yang di atas rata-rata. Apa boleh buat. Bukan salahnya ia memiliki sedikit kelebihan rasa cinta terhadap makanan. Yah, mungkin memang seharusnya ia dapat lebih mengontrol dirinya, tapi itu seperti menghentikan seseorang yang hobi melukis untuk berhenti melukis, bukan?
Kurang lebih, menghentikan seseorang dari hobinya adalah sebuah dosa.
Dan jika makan, baginya, bukanlah sebuah hobi, ia tidak tahu lagi mau menamainya apa.
Ia menyadari, tentu saja, bahwa hobinya bukanlah jenis yang banyak membawa keuntungan. Ia tahu ia akan mati mengenaskan suatu saat jika ia melanjutkan hobi ini. Jantung, ginjal, pencernaan, kanker, diabetes...hal ini menghantuinya setiap harinya. Seandainya ia dapat memilih...haah, apa boleh buat. Ia suka makan. Bukan, ia cinta makanan. Dan ia bersumpah akan membuat hobi ini mendatangkan keuntungan secara langsung ataupun tidak langsung, entah baginya atau bagi orang lain di sekitarnya. Sebelum ia mati dengan mengenaskan. Ya.
Tentu saja. Akan ia buktikan pada orang-orang itu, kontribusinya pada dunia.
bersambung...
Tuesday, June 25, 2013
Saturday, June 15, 2013
post-apocalypse
Hey! Hey hey hey~
So.
The so-called infamous final exam has finally come to an end, hence my writing this posting. It felt far shorter than I expected, not that I can complain about it.
About the result...well, I have anticipated of a big disappointment so I'm trying to not to be so hopeful. In other words, it's downright failure at worst, and mediocre at best. Just barely scraping the passing score. Or something like that. It's hard, though. After all, I have quite a high goal to achieve.
But my grades are just not willing to cooperate. It makes me so sad...especially because I don't feel like my brain is that incapable...
Anyway.
After the week-long struggle and the lifting of some significant amount of weight off my shoulder, I feel strangely empty now. It's not just because I'm just so used to all the hecticness, but also because I feel I wasn't trying hard enough during the exam. It left the "so that's it?" feeling. It's just so unsettling! I should've tried harder! But then again, it's no use to cry over spilt milk. I've made my mistake. Again.
It's just so hard to let my unwillingness go.
I'm the most pathetic human being ever to exist.
I'm filling my free-from-school days with lots of hanging out these days. This week I've already went to the cinema twice. My respond about the two movies...well, they were right about After Earth being a disappointment. The only thing I enjoyed from watching it is the constant shock--typical of horror movies, when it's not even from that genre--and even that was predictable (the fact that I went to watch with my friend was a plus side, though, it made the movie much more enjoyable than it should be). The act, let's just say the Smiths could do better than that. Shyamalan still got a long way to go. I just learn not to expect much from him. Except if he's making another horror. Suspense is quite acceptable. Just not action or adventure. As for Man of Steel, well, it's enjoyable. It's not near epicness, but enjoyable none the less. It's a Superman movie after all, none of those seriousness or complications or that much tenseness in Batman, although they had managed to make it more intense than its predecessors quite beautifully. What surprising is we get to see the more organic part of Krypton, and that is commendable. It's not a dead planet, after all, not after it explode. I do hope they still decide to make it into a trilogy. This is the greatest Superman movie so far. And Cavill is just too hot to just show up in one movie, I hope they understand the work of teenage hormones and use it for their marketing strategy. About JLA, I'm not quite sure it'll go on project now that I've seen MoS isn't quite meeting the expectation, my expectation at least, but it's got a high 8.4 rating in IMDB and good general response from public, so I still have hope.
And that's about as far as my holidays go.
So.
The so-called infamous final exam has finally come to an end, hence my writing this posting. It felt far shorter than I expected, not that I can complain about it.
About the result...well, I have anticipated of a big disappointment so I'm trying to not to be so hopeful. In other words, it's downright failure at worst, and mediocre at best. Just barely scraping the passing score. Or something like that. It's hard, though. After all, I have quite a high goal to achieve.
But my grades are just not willing to cooperate. It makes me so sad...especially because I don't feel like my brain is that incapable...
Anyway.
After the week-long struggle and the lifting of some significant amount of weight off my shoulder, I feel strangely empty now. It's not just because I'm just so used to all the hecticness, but also because I feel I wasn't trying hard enough during the exam. It left the "so that's it?" feeling. It's just so unsettling! I should've tried harder! But then again, it's no use to cry over spilt milk. I've made my mistake. Again.
It's just so hard to let my unwillingness go.
I'm the most pathetic human being ever to exist.
I'm filling my free-from-school days with lots of hanging out these days. This week I've already went to the cinema twice. My respond about the two movies...well, they were right about After Earth being a disappointment. The only thing I enjoyed from watching it is the constant shock--typical of horror movies, when it's not even from that genre--and even that was predictable (the fact that I went to watch with my friend was a plus side, though, it made the movie much more enjoyable than it should be). The act, let's just say the Smiths could do better than that. Shyamalan still got a long way to go. I just learn not to expect much from him. Except if he's making another horror. Suspense is quite acceptable. Just not action or adventure. As for Man of Steel, well, it's enjoyable. It's not near epicness, but enjoyable none the less. It's a Superman movie after all, none of those seriousness or complications or that much tenseness in Batman, although they had managed to make it more intense than its predecessors quite beautifully. What surprising is we get to see the more organic part of Krypton, and that is commendable. It's not a dead planet, after all, not after it explode. I do hope they still decide to make it into a trilogy. This is the greatest Superman movie so far. And Cavill is just too hot to just show up in one movie, I hope they understand the work of teenage hormones and use it for their marketing strategy. About JLA, I'm not quite sure it'll go on project now that I've seen MoS isn't quite meeting the expectation, my expectation at least, but it's got a high 8.4 rating in IMDB and good general response from public, so I still have hope.
And that's about as far as my holidays go.
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